I didn't choose this life.
I was born to live it.
So was dad, Pa,
his dad and his dad before that.
I will always remember these days
as the happiest days of my life, together as a family.
Get up.
I learned from watching my mom and dad
and how they work together.
So does my sister Sally,
who's been asking them the craziest questions lately.
- What did y'all think? - Dunno. Maybe ask Dad.
Maybe not your big brother, hey?
Come on, ladies.
Come on.
Get up!
Grab that last one, Eric.
Hey are you two ready for school?
- See you after. - See ya.
How do you know someone's a vegan?
- How? - Fucking tell you.
I think I'm gonna need a drink after this mate.
Gimme a ride to footy train?
As long as you behave yourself.
Yeah, supposed to be slowing down, you know?
It's payback for all the free labor
- you got outta me as a kid. - Ha.
We've seen clear skies. High 22.
Those northwesterly winds a cool change
as we see low pressure system even later tonight.
70% chance of rain.
Until then, let's soak up that sunshine.
- Ah, what's that? - Windmill.
Yes, beat me to it. Well done.
Mini train. Hello feet up.
Let's get ready. Here we go.
And we're off. Gonna get you mate.
I'm fucking driving
and I've had a few, you know, on the back roads
and I see this sign.
- It says, talking dog for sale. - Righto.
Quarter time next week I'll see yous over here home game.
Let's go. Who's gonna win?
Home game, nicely, that's right.
What you get?
Alright. Can we stay and come over with you?
No mate. I gotta train and gotta take Pa home.
Got some work to do when I get there too.
You've had a big day then.
Come on give dad a hug. We'll see him in the morning.
- See you Dad. - See you mate.
Have a good sleep right now behave.
See you both.
You said that dog's a fucking liar.
He hadn't done any of that shit.
This is a fucking bullshit dog.
You like that Patty?
Oh, look out boss is here.
You gonna take me arm straight. Gonna go home about five 10?
You gonna have a beer.
No I'm not... Get him a beer!
No, I'm all right Jackie I'm all right.
Like, no, no, I'm good.
No, I gotta get home and put the sheep in the shed.
- What? The sheep? - Yeah.
Why?
I can't afford to have wet sheep, can I?
- Oh can't have wet sheep. - Oh fuck having sheep.
Fuck the sheep, is that what he said?
Fuck your own fucking sheep.
Finish that and come home, all right?
All right, now Jackie, love,
have a couple on the tick, just gimme a couple.
I think you've had enough, haven't you?
No I'm gonna have plenty more.
I think... Just come on.
Right, right, right.
Said you were gonna stop, eh?
- I don't forget. - What don't you forget?
You.
You don't hang around with the blokes
much these days, do you son?
No.
Yeah. When's the last time you got a pisser?
Just too busy.
Well you know what they say?
You still need it.
- You gonna come to bed? - Yeah. Yeah.
I just got a couple of things to do
before tomorrow morning, but it's almost done, so.
20 minutes and you're gonna be in bed.
Hee-hoo, let's go boys. Fucking turn it up.
♪ Drive in the morning, drive through the night ♪
♪ Drive down the highway, keeping it all right ♪
♪ Let all the wind fall ♪
- The rest is right there. - All right.
Well you know we don't shear them every day.
♪ A good time ♪
♪ She said ♪
♪ She said keep moving ♪
♪ Just keep moving ♪
♪ Keep moving ♪
♪ Just keep moving ♪
- You all right? - Yeah.
♪ Just keep moving ♪
♪ Hey ♪
I'm, yeah, I'm a bit try sexual. I'll try anything sexual.
Oh, I suppose we finish up those last ones we got, eh?
- Nah! - What is it?
- Did you fart? - No, I didn't fart.
- Um okay hello? Hello. - Hi.
I'm sorry I haven't been answering the calls.
It's been just crazy.
- That's all right. - Yeah.
- What are you up to today? - I have a meeting.
First thing was this guy who thinks he can swing his dick
around to get his own way.
I hate his guts. I truly fucking hate his guts.
- Catherine. - Yeah?
The kid. The kids are here.
Hi Aunt Catherine.
Oh my God. I'm so sorry.
Hey Harry, how you going?
You taller than your mom yet?
- Yeah. - Yeah.
Well that wouldn't be hard. Is Sally there?
- Yep. Sal's here. - Oh.
- Hi! - I miss you so much.
Well, if you moved home,
you might meet a nice country guy.
Yeah, well that's never gonna happen in a million Sundays,
so I'm sorry about that.
They're not that bad.
Anyway, don't get me started, guys.
We'll be here for an hour. I gotta go, I gotta go, go.
Okay, well, we just got home.
Okay. Love you say so love you.
- See ya. - Okay I love you!
- Love you. - Bye.
- Say bye. - Bye!
Right, you two. Let's get inside.
- You know? - Hm?
Hey, what do you like in these shows?
- Patterns. - Patterns. Cool.
- Oh! - Here.
♪ Shine on me, shine ♪
What wrong, what's a matter?
What's going on? What's going on?
Hey, what's going on?
You're still...
Good morning, brothers, and sisters in Christ.
We are here this morning
to celebrate the life of Alec.
To thank God for the life and to mourn
and to honor him,
rest his mortal body
and to support the family
and support one another in this difficult time.
We are entrusting God, that the death of Alec
is a new beginning in his relationship with God.
We pray for Alec's family, mourn and pray.
Let them know that the love of God is unconditional.
Loving God, you alone are the source of man.
Your life giving room to rise,
fill us with your power.
And let the sorrow give us calm in your face.
For us, it is everlasting.
By the power of God, all is right.
Please come to us, in darkness, in stress,
with the light and peace of your son.
Shall we pray?
♪ Crawled the ceilings and the walls and they me full drink ♪
♪ And led me round the rooms ♪
♪ Naked and cold and grinning ♪
♪ Until everything went black ♪
♪ And I came down spinning ♪
♪ I awoke so drunk and full of rage ♪
♪ That I could hardly speak ♪
♪ A fag in a whale-bone corset ♪
♪ Draping his dick across my cheek ♪
♪ And its into the shame and its into a guilt ♪
♪ And the walls ran red around me, a warm arterial spray ♪
♪ Saying ♪
♪ Papa won't leave you, Henry ♪
♪ Papa won't leave you, Boy ♪
♪ Papa won't leave you, Henry ♪
♪ Papa won't leave you, Boy ♪
♪ Well, the night is dark ♪
♪ And the night is deep ♪
♪ And its jaws are open wide ♪
♪ But Papa won't leave you, Henry ♪
♪ So there ain't no need to cry ♪
♪ And I went on down the road ♪
♪ He went on down the road ♪
♪ And I went on down the road ♪
♪ He went on down the road ♪
♪ Oh whoa whoa, whoa, whoa ♪
♪ It's the rainy season where I'm living ♪
♪ Death comes leaping out of every doorway ♪
♪ Wasting you for money ♪
♪ Whoa, whoa, oh, oh ♪
♪ He went on down the road ♪
I can't get to sleep.
Well come and hop in here then.
- Good girl. Hm? - Mm.
Good girl.
Hello Allison. It's me again.
Yeah can you just gimme a call when you get a chance?
Okay, bye. I love you.
- Mom we ready to go. - Hm?
We're ready for school.
Right? Let's go, hun.
Hi Owen.
Can you give me a hand tomorrow with the cattle work?
Thank you.
How's Allison?
It's, it's still, it baffles me. Keeps happening.
I wonder how he did it.
I just wonder how they're coping with it, to be honest.
I mean, how do you move on from that?
- What'd you tell your kids? - I said,
it was a farm accident, I didn't wanna go into the details.
You know what's a tricky one? What, what did you say?
I told them the truth. I just said he was upset.
- How's school today? - Shit.
How about you both stay home and help me tomorrow?
Yeah!
Come on love.
Oh, this one has to go straight.
Sally, can you run down and can you change the gate for me?
Back here.
What's Pa doing?
All right mate.
Ah for fuck's sake.
Ugh.
I don't dunno, hun.
Just keep pushing that next cow up.
Ah you've still got it, boss.
Yeah.
Pa, you're in the way.
Eh?
You're in the way.
Yeah, oh yeah.
Fucking hell, man.
Damn. Shit.
- What's wrong with Pa? - He just misses dad, hun.
Fucking...
You all right hun?
Yep.
Lord Jesus. Yeah, yeah, old boy, that'll work.
Good work.
Come on, you two, out we go, time for school.
- I'm not going. - Yes you are.
I'm not going to school.
- Yes you are. - Mom. I'm not going.
- Yes you are. - What's the point?
Because an education's important.
I'm just gonna be a farmer. I don't need to learn.
Farmers have the most important job in the world, Eric.
It's a huge responsibility.
How are you expect to be a farmer
if you don't know how to do maths or English,
you're going to school!
Eric.
- Love you, Mom. - Love you too, doll.
Is that flower still in your hair?
Yes, but it's on the other side.
Ain't gonna make me pretty.
That's all right.
Come on, now.
Owen seriously, what the fuck are you doing?
Get out, now.
- I'm helping. - No you're not.
I'm feeding the cattle.
Get out!
I've lived here my whole life,
I know what I'm doing.
No you're drunk, you can't drive, get out!
I can drive.
It's too dangerous!
I can feed the cows.
Give me the keys, give me the keys now.
It's dangerous!
Dangerous?
Woo, dangerous? Whoa.
Fuck off, Owen.
All right, fucking danger.
Look at me, Owen, look at me.
Come on, if you don't get out now,
I'm gonna fucking throw you out by the scruff of your neck.
Get out!
Come on please, just hop out.
No, no, I don't need help.
Just don't, don't touch me.
Fucking...
All right, home, I'll go fucking home.
No, no.
Jesus, come on, let's just get you up to the house. Come on.
Here, put your clothes on.
Here we go.
Is he dead?
No honey, he's sleeping.
Quick, we better hurry.
One, two, go get your bag.
Let's go.
Come on, Lacy, come, we gotta get the sheep.
Please?
Stella!
Oh come on, push, push, push, push in, come on.
Hey, hey, push, push up, come on.
Push up girls, up come on, come on down.
Push up, push up.
Come on Stella, hop in!
Make them, push, push, push, Stella!
Come on, please, help me!
Stell, come on, no?
Please!
Good girl, come on, push up, push up.
Push up, come on, hey.
Push, hey, hey, hey, come on.
Stella!
Stella.
Push, push.
Stop.
Push, come on then.
Yeah, I don't wanna be noisy or anything,
Allison, but are you in trouble?
Yeah, we're coping.
You know, if there's anything I can do to help,
just reach out.
- I will. Thank you. - We have spare lunches.
Just in case they forget their lunchbox.
I forgot, didn't I? Sorry.
Hey, it's okay. So what do they have on their sandwiches?
Just in case.
You have a lot on your plate.
We'll make sure they get their lunch.
I'm all over it. Don't worry.
- You sure. - It won't happen again.
- Look after yourself. - Thanks.
Do grasshoppers have feelings?
Yeah, I reckon.
- Where's heaven? - What?
- Where's heaven? - In the sky I think.
- Can we go there? - Not really.
How do people get there?
Well, that's where they go when they die.
Will I go there when I die?
Yeah, I reckon.
Thanks.
Hi.
- How are you? - Good.
I am sorry. I'm sorry it took me so long to get here.
It's all right. You didn't need to come.
What the hell, of course I, Of course I had to come.
You didn't answer my calls.
I've just been busy.
- It's good to see. - It's good to see you too.
Well come in. Well get a cuppa.
Okay.
Wow. Wow.
That's like an atomic bomb just hit here.
Woo.
Um how long are you staying?
Oh I dunno.
Well did you want a cup of tea?
I'll put the jug on.
When was the last time you had a shower?
Like your hair is, is as queasy as fuck.
- Like it's rank. - Thanks Catherine.
Sorry I, well it just, your hair is really greasy.
Is black tea okay, because I've got no milk.
- Have you got oat milk or... - No.
Okay, yep. No worries.
Say hello to Auntie Catherine, you two.
Oh hi my Sally, you don't know me, do you?
Oh, Eric, so nice to see you.
You are taller than your mom, aren't you?
Is chicken nuggets and veggies okay for dinner?
Yeah.
Well look, why, why don't you go
and have a bath or something?
I'll, I'll, I can serve them up.
- Really? - Yeah.
Right. Well you two help, Auntie Catherine.
Ah, I'm here now,
and I will help you do things.
Hmm.
Okay, okay kids, let's, let's clean up the table
so that we can at least eat at it.
I just, Jesus Christ, is that Vegemite or poo?
Ah.
Boy. That looks good.
Alec, you're not sitting at the table covered in shit.
Go get changed.
You're not sitting at the table in that.
- You get out. - Ah!
How much do you want, doll?
Heaps, please.
You're gonna eat me outta house and home.
Thank you.
- Is that right? - You're such a...
Thanks mate, I'm glad you appreciate it.
Been working on them all day.
A little bit of this, little lady.
Oh you're so lucky I love you.
- Really? - Yeah.
Is that right, is that?
That's what I thought, actually, let's see-
Oh fuck, ow!
No, no!
- Stacks on Dad, quick! - No, don't you dare.
Don't you dare!
Ally, no!
You're out in the dump tonight, you lot.
Let's go!
And, oh yeah, chicken nuggets.
Thank you.
Would you like some water?
Yes please.
This is very civilized, isn't it?
There you are. I bet that feels better now.
- It does. Thank you. - Good.
Hi.
So what are you up to tomorrow then?
We have to get up early to clean
the shearing shit out for crutching.
Wanna help?
Um, I'll pass, stinky places they are.
- Yeah. - Mm.
Well?
Good, get it in.
All right.
Woo.
Yeah, woo.
- You know what I need? - What?
A nice cold beer, man.
Oh.
Good boy.
You can do this. You can do this.
So you reckon it's gonna take another two days
or so to get the rest done?
Yeah I reckon we're gonna have
to come back on Monday to finish the last of her.
I would've come on the weekend,
but this lot have got a party on.
It's all right. Eric's got footy.
Oh yeah, Cleo too. We're gonna be there.
It's gonna be hard, huh?
- Yeah, it will be. - Look,
I'm gonna come in tomorrow six o'clock.
I'll get started and if we can push through,
we might get it done in one day.
I dunno.
Um can I get an advance payment to pay Sonny?
He's gotta pay his rent tomorrow.
Yep. Just send me an invoice tonight and I'll get paid.
♪ I'm taking the coast road ♪
♪ And by the Lord I will be there by two ♪
♪ And a cat ♪
So you can butter these.
♪ Well it's a way, I'll be there by two ♪
♪ So far today ♪
♪ I'd slept on the highway ♪
♪ And on my way, I have to do ♪
- Hi! - They're back.
Quick, you go and finish the table, okay?
This is nice.
Yeah, I didn't do it alone.
I had a little apprentice.
She's the best little helper.
Eric was a good help in the yards today.
I think we've got the dogs figured out.
Stella's the boss and if you tell her what to do,
she needs follows.
I can't get them to do anything.
I think it's 'cause I sound like dad.
- Hey. - Hey.
- It's good to see you. - You too.
Yeah, so I've been hard at it.
Yeah. How's it all going?
It's no good Alison. It's rooted.
I think it only got through the last season
'cause of all the patch up jobs.
You're not gonna get anything out of this baler
until you fix this belt,
'cause it's frayed.
Well that's just what needs to happen.
Well yeah. Fix it or, or you buy a new one.
- I can't do that. - All right.
Better get started.
I'll have all the parts back at the workshop,
so don't worry, Allison.
You know, we'll, Pat, Sunny and I, we we've got you back.
You know, we'll work it out.
Thank you.
Coming to footy training?
Sure. I'll grab my gear.
Right.
No, we've got jobs to do.
Come on on. Please.
No, Eric, you've had a big few days.
Just not, Eric.
So shit.
Right. Sorry.
All good. It's a lovely gesture though.
He's got footy on the weekend.
I'll come to the game.
Yeah, you will?
How's the tractor thing going?
It's rooted.
How much is it gonna cost?
Enough.
Well, if it's too expensive
then maybe you should just not fix it.
If I don't get it fixed, I can't bail the hay.
Then you don't.
You don't bail the hay.
I don't bail the hay, I can't feed the stock.
I don't know how you're gonna deal with all this.
Deal with what?
$6 million debt.
Most farmers are in this amount of debt.
- Really? - Yeah.
As farmers, we gamble with the weather every day,
and when you get a season like we did last year
and the rain ruins the crop, we don't get a harvest.
It's a risk we take.
I don't know how people are gonna live like this.
It is what it is.
Hm.
Hello, - Allison it's Jackie,
listen, you need to come and pick up Owen.
- There's some trouble here. - Really?
He's had a bit much to drink
and he's getting aggressive.
- Please come down. - Okay.
I'll come down and get him now. Thank you.
Oh look.
Hey Jackie.
I'm sorry Ali, I would've taken him home myself,
but I just don't have anyone else to close up.
- I know. - Stop.
Bullshit.
Yeah, you do realize you're gonna have to buy.
Oh, it's gonna happen. Yeah.
What's gonna happen is
I'm gonna have to take you to rehab.
All right, all right.
Yeah,
- Okay big guy. - Enough for tonight.
I'm hungry.
- I'm gonna get you home. - Thanks Tucker.
Jackie, you know, just one, little one, little one.
But... How you going Allison?
- Yeah. Alright. - Oh.
Owen's been a little out of control tonight.
- He's okay. - What's the plan?
To get you home?
- All right. - Right.
You ready to get up?
- On three. - Thank you.
Jesus, on three.
One, two, three. Hey.
Whoa. Oi.
See you Jackie.
I want a pie.
Behave.
I'll be back darling. I'll be back.
I know you will.
I would've taken him but I've had a few myself.
- That's okay. - Okay.
- You gonna be okay? - Yep.
Sweet dreams Owen. He's gone to sleep.
All right. You drive safe.
Thanks. Sorry.
- Oh. - Okay.
- No, he's awake. - Oh for Christ's sake.
You just pissed yourself.
Through here, yeah on the couch.
Okay.
Over there, to this one.
- Let's go dancing. - Owen.
No, no, no, I'm in.
This is my spot.
We have to clean him up.
- No we aren't. - Yeah.
Really?
Right, on with it.
No, no, no pants off, no, no.
Well at least let me get your boots off, all right?
All right.
Yeah.
You better not bloody shit yourself,
I'm not cleaning it up!
Oh my god. Oh my god.
- Oh. - Right.
Alec's mom was so beautiful,
how old was she when she died?
Alec was just a baby, she had a heart attack.
Oh my God. That was so young.
Well that's why Alec was so paranoid about his heart.
I can't believe that Owen raised Alec
all on his own.
Hm, well he always said Alec was just like his mum
and how he wishes he got to spend more time with her.
Right. He should be here.
Let's go.
Eric, you coming?
Yeah!
- You look great. - Thanks.
Go Eric!
Go Eric.
Dickhead.
You think we can sneak off early for a drink or two?
Go Tigers, come on!
You and your dad's a coward.
- Hey boy stop! - Come here.
Settle down on the field, all right?
Okay? Settle down.
This tastes like the shit we used to drink.
- What you get on it? - Alec was having an affair.
- No. - He really was.
- No. - I don't believe it.
- Who in town? - I couldn't tell.
- Everyone would tell? - Not sure.
I would totally have an affair with him.
- He was... - You would two?
She just heard everything you said, okay?
- You okay? - Shit.
I'm not gonna let them get away with that.
Just stop looking at them, we've just gotta go home.
No, no. I am not gonna leave it alone.
I'm gonna, if you don't go and hit that bitch's face in,
- I will. - No.
Okay, I'm going. I'm going.
Don't stop it. Okay.
Does saying all that shit
make you feel better about yourself?
Serious?
Just saying what I heard.
I hear you say another thing about my family,
I seriously will beat the living fucking shit out of you.
Just what I heard.
- Whoa! - Wait!
- Hey, hey, hey. - No girl, no.
Alison. Alison, what whatcha doing?
What are doing?
I'm looking for Alec's phone!
Look... I'm looking!
Hey.
Right. You need to be honest with me.
- Yeah. - Was Alec an affair?
You haven't changed, have you?
Ollie? It's killing Allison.
Catherine. Allison was his whole world.
And no, Alec was not having an affair.
But I just knew that.
I just don't understand why he would leave her behind.
I don't understand why.
A kingdom for son.
Her son.
I lost him, Gene, lost the boy.
Your little boy.
Yeah, well yeah I did.
I lost him, never see him.
Lost him.
Boy.
- You cleaned my room? - Allison it was a mess.
You washed my sheets?
You can't keep doing this on your own.
And so I'm here to help you.
You have no idea what I'm going through.
Well maybe you should talk to someone.
- Oh my God. No, I'm fine. - No you are not, Allison.
Allison, it's like you're thinking that Alec will come
through the door any moment and and fix everything.
Fuck, you haven't even told the kids what actually happened.
Catherine. How am I supposed to tell them?
How do I tell them that their dad left on purpose?
How do I tell a 12-year-old boy that his dad left,
'cause he didn't wanna be here anymore, Catherine?
How do I do that?
I don't know.
What I need to do is just make sure
that the farm is always here for them.
- That's what Alec wants. - Allison,
your kids are the most important thing right now.
Not the farm.
You need to leave.
- No. - Just get out.
No, I'm not going anywhere.
This me? Yeah.
Yeah.
Just me.
I can't breathe. Help me I can't breathe!
Hey, hey. Do you...
- You've had a stroke. - Huh?
What? You're a shit.
You're an asshole. You scared me.
I should have told him the truth.
I should have told him. I should have told him.
- Just the truth. - What do you mean?
Just rest.
Gene, Gene didn't die of a heart attack.
Gene, talk to me.
What's wrong where are you going?
Help me, please.
Look Alec in there. He's upset, crying.
Stop crying!
You gotta get outta the car.
- No, no! - Stop, stop, come on.
Get outta the car! Get outta the car!
She was always threatening.
I just never thought she'd go through with it.
If only I had told Alec about his mother's illness.
Maybe my boy would still be here.
♪ Oh, oh ♪
♪ Oh ♪
♪ Oh, oh ♪
♪ Oh ♪
Good boy.
That's nice.
- I'm sorry. - It's okay.
No, it's not. I can't take this out on you.
You don't deserve this.
Yeah, I deserve it.
You're right.
I'm not handling Alec being gone at all.
I need to get better at it.
You will. You just need time.
You all need time.
Just wish he was here.
He is here.
Yeah.
Maybe you should talk to Jackie.
You're wearing my shirt.
Yeah.
You try to be this sophisticated person,
but just have to-
- I'm sophisticated. - At your door.
Don't tell anyone it's mine now.
Oh.
I'm coming.
- Hi. - Allison.
Hi. Come in.
- Thank you. - I'll put the kettle on.
Please have a seat.
There we go. Here you go.
Thank you, I brought these, but they're probably stale.
Oh, just... Sorry.
Now...
So how are you?
I don't know.
No, of course you don't.
It's a hard journey and no one knows how to navigate it
but you are so loved by so many people.
It's okay to tell us what you need.
How do I know what I need?
I just want Alec to come back.
Yeah, yeah, that's okay.
It's not gonna happen.
Everywhere I look, I just, I'm reminded of him.
You know, I just wish I could go back in time
and just stop him and help him and see him.
Yeah.
Remembering him is a good start.
Alec may be physically gone, but you'll remember him.
You'll always remember him, with love.
I think of Patrick every day
and my memories of him are very precious.
Your relationship with him will never die.
You don't have to let him go or move on.
You are forming a new relationship with him
and it will be hard
for you and for the kids.
Have you talked to the kids about this?
Oh Ally, you need to talk to them sweetheart.
Let them tell you how they feel.
Okay?
Yeah.
Let's have one of these.
Oh yeah.
Good God.
Just a bit stale.
Like a bloody crisp.
They've been in the cupboard awhile.
- Thank you. - Anytime. Anytime sweetheart.
Hey.
What am I supposed to tell them?
You have left me here and I'm so lost.
We fucking miss you Alec. We miss you so much.
And we love you.
I'm scared they're gonna hate you
and forget your love and who you really were.
I can't do this on my own.
How would I ever understand?
- Guess what? - What?
Pa is getting outta hospital tomorrow
and he's going to stay with us for a little while.
Can he stay in my room?
Well I was thinking you could sleep in with me,
and he can sleep in your bed.
- Yay. - Yay.
And then when Auntie Catherine's gone,
he can sleep in the spare room.
- Sounds good. - Yeah.
And I'm sorry that we haven't talked
about Dad much lately, I've been struggling.
It's 'cause Dad's gone?
Yeah.
We just need to talk about how we feel
and let ourselves understand why we feel that way.
Because if we talk about how we feel,
then we'll understand why we're angry
and why we're sad,
and you know why we feel guilty.
I miss him.
Me too. And we always will.
But we just need to remember that he, he'll always love us.
Why did he do it?
Because he was struggling
with his mental health and he didn't get help.
And he got so sick that he lost himself.
It's just shit.
He didn't do it to hurt you or anyone. Okay?
He did it to escape his own pain,
and if he knew how much it would hurt us
to not have him anymore, he would never have done it.
You are not gonna leave us if you get sick, are you?
No, no, no, no. I am working on getting better.
Okay and if you two need help feeling better,
you need to come to me and talk to me
'cause I'll do my best to listen
and answer any questions that you have.
Hey mom, can I help you feel any better?
Yeah you just keep being you
because you're an amazing young man.
Here.
- You just grab its head. - Yep.
- Thank you. - All good.
Hey, sorry.
- It's okay. - I just really miss him.
We're always gonna miss him.
You know he never would've done anything to hurt you.
I know.
Come here.
Now you, it's time for school.
Oh.
Owen, I've made a decision.
- Decision about what? - The farm.
Yep. And?
And we're probably gonna have to look at leasing out
some of the farm or even selling some of the land.
Okay.
And you and I are gonna have to come up with a way
that we can realistically run the place together.
You mean I'm staying?
Yeah. What do you mean?
I thought you were gonna tell me
that you know you're gonna ship me off
to a home somewhere.
Do you think you need to talk to someone though,
about everything?
What is there to talk about?
Lots. And you need to talk about all of it.
Oh, crikey.
First you want me to give up the sauce
and now you want me to go talk to some, some shrink.
Yeah.
- Is it working? - Yeah.
That's, oh god, that's the best news.
That net wraps a bit sticky.
So when it beeps, make sure you stop
before you let the bail out.
Right? Okay.
What are you up to this avo?
I thought I might go to the pub.
Haven't been since Alec.
Catherine, you might wanna go?
- Smooth Alison. - Who knows?
You might have fun.
What do you think?
It's cool. You can come along.
Don't think, don't think anything's gonna happen though.
You'll be lucky.
Yeah.
Alright, watch this, watch this. It's the magic way.
See?
About four minutes.
Don't think mom will want it in the microwave?
I ain't your mum. It'll be awesome.
So what else we got? We got the carrots.
God, look at him. Super careful.
Considered. He's all right, isn't he?
Found his calling.
What's your favorite food?
- Chocolate. - Chocolate.
What's your favorite food?
Well, I say, I'd say beer. Yeah, that's my favorite food.
But we're gonna give it a spell for a while.
- Oh. - Yeah.
Problem is when I get off the beer,
I become too slim and attractive.
I just, I just, it just looks ridiculous.
You believe me?
- No? - Yeah you do.
Of course she does. Oh, what's that?
Boing. Yeah.
Thought you might like some dinner.
Ooh. What'd yous make?
Made you sausages.
Pa cooked them in the microwave
Oi you, don't give away my trade secrets now.
Hey mom, can I go on the chat with you for a bit?
Yeah. Only if you help me eat this.
- Oh. - I'm coming too.
Are you? Okay, hurry up then.
Hey, I'll, I'll come back to about an hour
and pick 'em up.
Yep. Oh, can you get me a coffee please?
No worries.
Allison?
Yeah?
Reckon you're a better option than a shrink.
You already know I'm bat shit crazy,
Aren't we all, Owen?
Quick you two, say bye to Pa.
- See ya. - Bye.
You grab this thing for me?
Okay, thank you.
♪ Oh ♪
We've lit the candle once again, mate.
Like we often do.
It's a tip that someone gave us
for when we think of you.
Now I've learned a lot of things mate,
in the time that you've been gone,
I've learned there's such a thing as heartache.
It's not just a turn of phrase,
it's physical and quite intense and leave you in a daze.
I've learned the power of family, community, and friends.
The comfort and the empathy,
the warmth of people at their best and broken hearted, mate.
And that's a tag I'll never wear. Battered and bruised.
I will accept.
And a scar that heals the tear.
And anger mate, it never came. I didn't think it would.
How could you be in so much pain,
and we never fully understood.
I have a memory of a dream that's vivid in my head.
One night just after you had gone, the days were okay,
but nights were long.
It was like you touched my shoulder
to rouse me from my sleep.
There you were beside our bed, you said,
"I'm really sorry Dad"
"but I just couldn't carry on."
Then I reached to touch you, and just then you were gone.
♪ Oh ♪