[Payson] Previously on Make It or Break It:
The guy at the party you lost your virginity too?
- It was Carter? - I'm sorry.
I love you too.
But it's over.
Look, I'll be your teammate,
but I will never be your friend again.
Watch out for her while I'm out?
Yes, sir.
I sent some songs to a producer. He sent me a ticket to LA.
I leave next week.
- I bought cortisone illegally. - Where'd you get it?
I don't think I can make it through Nationals without it.
[man] This routine could make Payson Keeler the next Nationals all-around champion.
[crowd gasps]
[man] And your new National champion, Miss Kaylie Cruz.
Way to kick some ass.
[rock music]
It just feels so weird without Payson.
I heard she can't even walk. How tragic is that?
Except she can walk. You heard wrong.
We should have a telethon or a party or something.
Raise money to buy her a wheelchair.
She can walk, Lo. The doctors just said
that she can't do gymnastics anymore.
Well...
What happens if she doesn't listen to them?
Then I guess she really won't be able to walk.
Pay!
What are you doing here?
Gotta train.
You don't think I'm going to let you win Nationals again next year, do you?
- But, what about...? - My back?
It was just a muscle strain.
The doctors were wrong.
[Sasha] What are you waiting for?
You can do this.
[applauding]
[laughter]
[dog barking]
[Kim] Is Payson still sleeping?
She was. Her door's closed.
You don't think the physical therapist is pushing her too hard, do you?
I don't think that's possible.
Don't worry. She said it's going great.
That's reassuring.
She also says she's sleeping great.
And her back feels great.
It's great to be home.
It's great to have time to herself...
Hey, is it so hard to believe that we've raised a well-adjusted child
who knows how to deal with adversity?
No. But, Mark, things are not great.
She's just lost the only dream she ever had.
If it were me I would be...
I don't know, sad or mad or depressed...
She won't even talk to her friends.
Give her time.
She's only been home for a few days.
The parade's on. Can we watch it?
[Mark] Becca, we talked about this.
- Maybe we should go outside... - Please. I wanna see it.
- Becca. - But it's not fair.
[Payson] C'mon.
Everyone loves a parade.
I want to see it, too.
- Are you sure you're up to it? - Relax, Mom, I feel great.
Seriously. I just want to watch it,
not march in it.
OK.
Yay!
Great.
[marching band plays]
[girl] All right, Kaylie!
[man on TV] You couldn't ask for a better day.
Sunshine, blue skies, and hundreds of fans
gathered to show their appreciation for some world-class athletes
who live and train right here in Boulder.
I think it's fair to say that the young woman coming up next
is today's star attraction.
Kaylie Cruz, the new Women's National Champion.
- She looks great. - [man] Riding alongside Kaylie
is Men's National silver medalist, Nicky Russo.
What about Lauren and Emily? I don't see them.
This is so humiliating.
You don't see Kaylie throwing candy.
She wouldn't have even won if Payson hadn't broken her back.
That's not fair. You don't know that.
[Lauren] Life isn't fair.
Candy, candy!
[man on TV] In a few moments
the athletes will be arriving...
Can you record the rest for me?
I think I want to get a nap in before lunch.
- Do you need some help? - No. I can do it.
[man on TV] That was coach Sasha Belov.
[Mark] She seemed to handle that pretty well.
[sighs] That's what worries me.
[door closes]
[cheering, applauding]
[woman] Congratulations to Coach Sasha Belov,
for leading four of The Rock's gymnasts to the National Team.
To silver medalist, Nicky Russo.
And especially to gold medal-winning
National Champion, Kaylie Cruz!
Kaylie?
On behalf of the city of Boulder,
I'd like to present you with the key to this city.
We declare today, Kaylie Cruz Day.
Yay, Kaylie!
Thank you, mayor.
This has been such an amazing day.
I want to thank the people of Boulder for all of your support.
To my coach, my family and my teammates,
I couldn't have done this without you.
[applause]
And, of course,
it is today that we stand here with a heavy heart
trying to celebrate, when our teammate and friend,
Payson Keeler, should be standing here right now.
[mayor] Right.
Well, Kaylie, if you think this celebration is something,
wait till you see the party we're going to throw you
when you bring home Olympic gold in 2012!
Isn't that right, everyone?
[cameras clicking]
Must be hard to watch.
Do me a favor...
Leave me alone.
Great day, huh?
Says Kaylie Cruz on Kaylie Cruz Day.
I should be training.
You can take one day off.
No, I can't, actually.
You see winning requires focus.
Payson understood that.
Well, I'm sorry I'm not Payson.
- Thank you, guys. - Yeah.
Great idea, putting us together.
You're good for each other.
PR wise.
The press loves it. And it gets your face out there.
- Yeah, about that... - Not my idea. But I like it.
So after the autograph-signing,
you've got a couple phone interviews
and another with a local paper.
But it's Kaylie Cruz Day.
Exactly.
It's about you, Kaylie, not for you.
Your life is no longer your own.
You'll be traveling all over the world,
competing in international events on behalf of your country.
Everything you do and say will be analyzed, critiqued and reported on.
This is only the beginning.
But it will be worth it.
Every time I call, she's resting.
[Emily] Her mom keeps telling me she's not up to having any visitors.
Guys, when she wants us to come over she'll let us know.
You're just saying that because you haven't even tried to call.
We're her friends. We should just go to the Spruce Juice,
pick her up something and surprise her.
- What do you think, Kay? - Don't.
- What? - Include me.
Like we're friends. We're not.
- Hi. - How about some forgiveness?
How about some "are you frigging kidding me?"
Now, I'd really like a year of no drama, if you don't mind.
Congratulations, Kaylie.
You did it. You deserve it
and everything that comes with it.
- Thanks, Carter. - I wish you the best.
Always.
Kaylie, are you OK?
Yeah. Yeah, I'm fine.
With all this craziness,
I'm glad he's not at The Rock anymore.
It's going to be hard enough to focus as it is.
Right. No drama.
Yeah. Why don't you try it?
What? I hate drama.
[Mark] I'm going to miss this.
What?
Us. Being together.
I have to go back to Minnesota next week for work.
- No. - I don't have a choice, honey.
I've used up all my vacation days.
I've been thinking about it.
Why should Dad go to Minnesota while we all stay here?
You know why, Payson. That's where my job is.
No, no. I know that. But...
But why don't we all go with you?
The only reason we moved here was so I could train at The Rock.
I'm never going back to The Rock.
I don't want to.
So there's nothing left for us here.
It's a little more complicated than that.
No, it isn't. We should move back.
- You came! - I wouldn't miss this.
I'm celebrating someone who made the National Team.
Barely. If you haven't noticed it isn't Emily Kmetko Day.
Well, it's a national holiday to me.
And, like it or not, I am celebrating you.
Oh, be careful, Sasha's here.
Come here.
You know what, I think today we should celebrate you?
Going to LA and becoming a rock star.
Songwriter. And don't change the subject.
This is about you.
OK? Living your dream.
I am...
...so far beyond my dream right now.
This is amazing.
Then you gotta dream bigger.
Now, how...?
How are we going to celebrate?
Oh, I know.
"Admit one.
Damon Young Unplugged at the Starlight Lounge."
Where's the Starlight Lounge?
You've never been there?
- No. - Oh. You'll love it.
Meet me at the Pizza Shack.
Tomorrow night, closing. We'll go from there.
I'm so proud of you. All of you.
Who would've guessed Kaylie would win Nationals?
No one.
You're happy for her, aren't you?
Oh, of course. She's my best friend.
She inspires me.
- Oh, Lauren. That's nice. - When Payson was number one,
Kaylie and I took turns being second.
But now that Payson's out, I figure I can be number one, too.
Well, that's great!
Anything's possible with hard work and determination.
That's one way.
Excuse me.
Sasha? Can I talk to you? It's important.
Yeah. Of course. What's it about?
Carter Anderson.
There's something you should know.
[doorbell]
Hi!
I hope it's not a bad time.
- No, it's not. We're just... - OK. Good.
I hope you haven't had dinner. I made my special casserole.
Now, all you do is heat it at 375 for 20 minutes.
Three-seventy-five, 20 minutes. Got it.
Oh! And the most important part,
after you take it out of the oven,
crumble up these potato chips and sprinkle them on top.
Don't do it before, 'cause they get all soggy.
Good to know. Got it. Thank you.
Honey, don't you want to go see Payson?
Do you think that would be OK?
Don't be silly. You're her friend.
- She needs friends. Go! - [Mark] Sure.
Go.
Look...
I know I wasn't invited,
but I also know how you can put yourself in a hole
and forget about the rest of the world when you're hurt.
How are you guys doing?
It's getting better every day.
It's tough to watch her struggle, though.
We try to stay grateful.
We keep reminding ourselves it could have been so much worse.
Payson could have wound up in a wheelchair...
I'm so sorry.
Brian. I wasn't thinking.
Hey. Don't worry.
If there's anybody who knows what you're going through, I do.
If you ever need to talk I'm here.
[Mark] Thank you for coming, Chloe.
Really.
Oh, give me a hug.
So I saw you on TV in the parade.
Nice hat. They let you keep that?
Yeah. Fortunately, no.
[both laugh]
Nice girdle. You get to keep it?
I'm thinking about it.
- It does make me look slim. - And sexy.
[chuckles]
I'm really sorry I haven't called anybody back.
I've been trying to focus on my rehab, and it's just...
Hey, don't sweat it.
We all just really want to know how you're doing. That's all.
We all really miss you.
Maybe, if you're feeling up to it, you could come by The Rock.
I know everyone would love to see you.
I don't know if I'll get a chance.
We might be moving back to Minnesota.
Seriously?
Like, soon?
There's still a lot to work out.
So, probably shouldn't even be talking about it.
I guess I just don't have much to say.
About anything.
Well...
That is why I brought these.
- Want to play? - I guess.
[hip-hop music]
What is that called?
The Tanner.
Or at least it will be when I land it in a competition.
That's amazing, Lauren.
I've had a lot of time to train,
without the drama or distractions.
And yet you still managed to fall on your ass.
I'm sure Kaylie's asking herself,
"Now that the world has seen the best Kaylie Cruz has to offer,
what will I do for an encore?"
Oh, I don't know... I was thinking Olympic gold.
I wouldn't want that pressure.
The target on your back that comes with being number one.
Having to stay right there,
while Kelly Parker tries to topple you.
Who needs it? Look what it did to Payson.
Speaking of Payson. I saw her last night.
- How is she? - She's OK, I guess.
She said she's sorry she hasn't returned anyone's calls.
Hey, you saw Payson?
How's she doing? Is she in a lot of pain?
You know Payson. She'd never say.
Yeah. Well, they probably have her on cortisone.
That's pretty common with those types of injuries.
[Payson] I must look like a freak.
No. You look beautiful.
Like always.
So how are you doing? Really?
Great. I ate an entire banana split yesterday without even feeling guilty.
Retirement definitely has its upside.
Come on. Sit down.
Well, I have to admit, this isn't what I expected.
What do you mean?
The way you're handling it.
You're so, like, "Everything's cool."
I mean, I try to imagine, if it was me...
You know, gymnastics is my whole life.
If I had that taken away I'd just want to die.
But you...
Payson...
You just might be my hero.
It's so nice of you guys to spend your lunch break visiting Payson.
Us guys?
Yeah. Nicky Russo is in there.
- Oh! Great. - Go on.
Thanks, Mrs. Keeler.
I know you're probably wondering about the cortisone.
Yeah, I just feel so guilty.
I can't stop thinking about it.
You couldn't have competed at Nationals without the cortisone.
You wouldn't have gotten hurt. It's my fault...
Nicky! It isn't. I didn't use it.
- What? - It's OK. I didn't.
I wanted to.
And I started to, but I just...
I couldn't, so I threw the vial away.
I still shouldn't have given it to you.
I could have gotten you in trouble.
I forged my dad's signature on the prescription.
You know that's a felony? Payson, I could go to jail.
Nicky, no one knows. I threw one vial away in Boston.
And the other one is in my locker.
Go get it.
My combination is 12-24-36.
[Nicky] Twelve-24-36.
[Payson] You're doing both of us a huge favor.
Oh, hey, Nicky.
I didn't know you were here.
Yeah, actually, I was just leaving.
Gotta get back to The Rock.
Well...
You may not have gotten the gold, but it looks like you got the guy.
Nice work.
So you don't call anymore?
Sorry. I've just been really tired.
No, I get it.
It's just I really miss you, Pay.
The Rock's not the same without you.
It's really good to see you, Lauren.
But I've got to get ready for physical therapy.
So maybe you could come back another time?
Sure. No problem.
I'll call next time.
[rock music]
I'm asking you to use your judgment. Don't load up her plate.
Kaylie's one weakness is that she's easily distracted.
I'm aware. I am her manager.
And I'm her coach.
I just think she needs a day without an interview.
Well, it's too late. Her first live one is today.
I went to visit Payson. Nicky was there, too. Have you been yet?
- No. - I guess we know who her real friends are.
I'll get there.
Look who just entered the no drama zone.
This conversation isn't over.
I wonder what he's doing here?
I have no idea.
[Sasha] So I'll get to the point.
I'm lifting your suspension.
Really?
[gasps] That's great.
- Thank you. - Your girlfriend came forward.
She said that she was as guilty as you,
and deserves to be suspended as well.
However, since she assured me that it was over
and would never happen again, I'm showing leniency.
For you both.
I'm giving you a second chance.
- I appreciate that. - But keep in mind...
Same thing I told her: the no-dating rule still applies.
This is your last chance.
She risked a lot to get you back in here, so don't blow it.
Thank you.
For what?
For going to Sasha.
For risking everything you have to get me back in The Rock.
Thank you.
I'm sorry, but I have no idea what you're talking about.
- You? - You deserve to be here.
And no one else was willing to put themselves on the line for you.
You told Sasha about you and Carter?
It was the right thing to do.
- For who? - For him.
He gave up everything to protect you.
And you think this makes you some kind of hero?
No.
But someone needed to do something to help out Carter.
And...
I am the one who slept with him.
Kaylie? It's time for your interview.
I'll be sure to tell Payson you're thinking about her next time I visit.
Are you ready?
This is live. It's great practice.
- Um... - Kaylie,
I gave you your schedule this morning.
Yeah, I know, um...
It's just... really not a good time.
You know what? The press doesn't care.
You made a commitment.
Now go over there and act like the champion you are.
[man] So, Kaylie, how does it feel
to be the Women's National Gymnastic Champion?
Um...
Good. It feels good.
You weren't favored to win.
So were you as surprised as the rest of the world when you did?
Well...
You know, I trained hard all year...
But, uh...
Yeah, I guess I was surprised.
[man] Let me ask you about Payson Keeler.
You've known her since you were six. You're close friends.
Be honest.
If she hadn't suffered a career-ending fall
on the second day of competition,
do you think you still would have won?
Um... Yeah.
I don't know.
I'm sorry. I just...
I really... I can't do this.
[M.J.] Kaylie!
It's nice. Thank you.
[clears throat] Hey, I'm sorry I didn't come here sooner, or call.
It just feels like M.J.'s got every minute of my day scheduled.
You know how that is.
No. I never had a manager.
Right.
Well, you know what I mean.
All those things that come with being number one.
I was never number one. Not where it counted.
What?
I'm so sorry I haven't come to see you.
It's not that I've been busy...
Um... It's just...
It should have been you, Payson.
You should have won Nationals and not me.
And every day I wonder, did I deserve it?
You know?
And everyone's expecting me to do it again.
And then the Olympics.
And... What if...?
What if I can't? What if...?
I'm scared, Pay.
What if I let everybody down? What should I do?
Nothing. You'll be fine.
You always are.
- Did I do something? - No.
Look, I'm sorry I didn't come here sooner. I just...
I mean I didn't really know what to say.
And everyone's treating me like I'm this big deal and I'm not.
Just tell me you understand and you're still my friend.
I need you, Payson.
More than ever.
Honestly, Kaylie, I'd like to help, but...
I have a few other things on my mind right now.
Right. I'm sorry.
[crying]
'Night, Kaylie!
Good night.
Well, that can't be good.
I'll go check on Payson.
Everything OK here?
Yeah. Just getting ready for bed.
OK.
Are you sure? I swear I just heard Kaylie crying.
You know how dramatic she gets sometimes.
You know you've had a rough couple of weeks.
If you need to talk, your mother and I are...
I'm fine, Dad. Really.
I'm great, actually.
I've always admired the way you can control your emotions.
I think that's one of the reasons why...
...you're such a strong competitor.
You have this ability to take whatever you're feeling
and put it into a little box so that it can't distract you.
You put, uh...
Fear into a box.
You can put your insecurities into another box.
You know, champions, they can...
Well, they can do that in a way that the rest of us we just...
We just can't.
You see, the thing is...
...life isn't a competition, Payson.
It's OK to open those boxes...
...to feel everything, the good and the bad.
You've lost something you love.
Let it out.
Good night.
Maybe I'm just like you, Dad.
I've never seen you get...
...angry because you lost something you loved.
How did you do that?
You know that hospital they took you to in Boston?
Where the doctors told us you couldn't compete anymore?
If you know where to look,
you'll find a hole in the wall.
I put it there.
Good night, Daddy.
Good night, sweetheart.
Damon?
[rock music]
Oh, my gosh. This is...
Welcome to The Starlight Lounge.
Damon, this is amazing.
I can't believe you did all of this.
I wanted our last night in Boulder to be unforgettable.
Do you actually think I might forget you?
I don't know. Will you?
This is one of the coolest things that someone has ever done for me.
I can't believe you've never been to The Starlight Lounge.
And to discover it just as you're leaving, what a shame.
I think there's one in LA too.
Same ceiling treatment.
So when you're here, and I'm there...
We can see the same star.
I saw that movie.
What movie? I just came up with that.
So what are you thinking about?
I was thinking about the night we met.
Ah. The kegger by the river.
You were there with your friends...
I was...
...there with Razor, the band.
So, when you met me that night...
...could you ever have imagined us being here, like this, now?
On the world's most romantic date?
No!
As a matter of fact, I didn't even like you.
What about you?
Could you have imagined us here, now?
Yes.
As a matter of fact, I could.
[clattering]
- What is that? - I don't know.
It's Payson. It's Payson!
Wait.
She needs to do this.
She's got to get it all out.
- What's she doing? - Oh, Becca.
Everything is going to be fine.
Your sister is going to be fine.
When do you leave?
Tomorrow.
It's really cool that you understand why I'm going...
If anyone understands doing whatever it takes for your dream, it's me.
Yeah, some girls, you know,
wouldn't be cool with somebody that they're getting close to...
...just taking off.
Well, that's not me.
You have to follow your dream.
But I guess some guys, you know...
...maybe would wonder if a girl would wait for them.
Well, that's not me.
I could never ask for that.
It's not fair.
I mean, unless we...
You know, decided that...
...making...
Yo, brother!
I saw your car in the parking lot.
- What is all... - Razor!
...this about?
Razor. We were just talking about you.
- Oh? - What are you doing here?
Like I just said, I saw your car in the parking lot,
thought you may be up for a party...
I guess you were.
Yep. This is weird.
Right?
Wow.
Emily.
Damon and Emily.
So... question.
When you checked in,
called me up that midnight with the munchies,
wondering how it was all going...
...was there something you forgot to tell me?
You two have been in touch?
We talked once or twice.
- I thought you hadn't. - We have.
Oh, wow. I really have to go.
No, Emily, please stay.
Look, Damon,
it's Emily Kmetko.
The girl you said you were going to keep your eye out for.
- How's it going, Emily? - Great.
- That's great. - What have you been up to?
I just got back from a couple months on the road...
As a roadie.
You two enjoy this whole little festive scene you got going on.
I am going to exit my bad self...
...stage left.
Check you guys later.
I'm going to Los Angeles for a bit.
- Really? - I thought I told you.
Damon sold some of his songs!
Wow. You did?
That's very cool, Damon.
So you are going to LA.
And I am here with Emily.
Anybody else seeing the irony in this situation?
Peace, Emily.
I will see you at the Shack.
Bye, Razor.
Damon?
We should go.
Was there something you wanted to...?
It's late. Did you have a jacket?
[Payson] What are you doing with those?
Fixing them.
Becca, it's time to go.
- Can you get in the car? - OK.
[Kim] How are you feeling this morning?
- Better. - Better?
I think I feel...
- Better. - "Better" is good.
It's much better than "great."
You had me worried.
You've been through so much.
Does it bother you
when you see me take Becca to The Rock?
Not if that's what she wants.
What about you?
What do you want?
Do you really want to move back to Minnesota?
No. I just know that it hurts so much to be here.
And that it kills me to think about ever
even stepping foot in The Rock.
Why?
Because it's everything I'll never have again.
I love you, Payson.
And I know you're in a lot of pain.
But you are so wrong.
The Rock is everything you'll always have.
- [groans] - It's maturity.
It's discipline.
It's knowledge.
It's taking risks.
It's trying. It's always trying.
It's being a champion in life.
And you learned all of it at The Rock.
And you'll always have it. And you'll always be it.
I don't feel like that.
I don't feel like anything.
I can never compete again.
No, you can't.
And that's a terrible thing.
But there's so much you can do.
You have community, family, friends.
You still have that.
You didn't lose that.
You going to be OK with me being here?
I plan on staying so focused I'll barely even notice you.
Good.
I guess I should say thank you.
I guess you should.
But, considering everything,
I think you'll understand if I don't.
[Chloe] Why the long face?
Damon's catching a bus to LA tonight.
And it all just ended kind of weird.
Weird how?
I said I couldn't ask him to stay
and he said he couldn't ask me to wait.
Oh, honey.
That's the worst goodbye I ever heard.
Did you want him to ask you?
Yeah.
I really did.
Well, then you have to go tell him.
No. I can't.
Well, would you rather him think
that something sparky-sparky was going on with you and Razor?
Huh?
- Hi. - Hi.
How's Payson doing?
I can honestly say better. I think.
Well, you're all in my prayers.
Thank you.
Sasha thinks I should fill in for you while you're on leave.
I'm willing to do it, but only with your blessing.
Oh. You have it.
[Kim] I'm sorry to hear about your engagement.
Oh! Don't be.
It's for the best.
Do you guys think you could ever work it out?
No.
There is nothing that Steve Tanner
could ever do to make up for...
Um, to change my mind.
Are you expecting Payson?
Payson.
I've been waiting for you.
It's OK that I came?
Champions are always welcome here.
What do you say, people?
How do we greet a returning champion?
[applauding]
Glad you're back.
It's so good to see you back here.
- We've all missed you... - Don't!
Don't. This is...
This is really hard for me.
I am...
...so angry at you right now.
I am filled with rage and bitterness and jealousy.
And it is killing me because you're my friend.
And I love you. And...
...you don't deserve what I'm feeling.
What did I do?
You won.
For as long as I've known you, you've had everything.
You're popular.
You're pretty.
You have money.
Boys like you.
And I've been OK with that because...
The only thing that ever really mattered to me...
The only thing I wanted was to win.
I didn't have to feel jealous,
because I was going to be the National champion.
I was going to be the winner. And then...
And then you took that too.
And now I'll just... I'll never know.
I'm sorry.
- You have no idea. - No!
Don't you dare be sorry. Never be sorry for winning.
I'm serious Kaylie.
I just need to know.
Are we going to be OK?
I really don't know.
But I'm trying.
And at least you know what I'm feeling now.
You deserve that.
I better get back inside.
One more thing.
Listen to me, Kaylie.
You're the National champion.
You. Don't ever forget it.
Don't ever apologize for it.
You beat Kelly Parker.
And if you can do it once,
you're the one that can do it again.
Next time you doubt yourself, just remember that.
Thank you.
[Lauren] It's not in there.
But don't worry,
I put it in a safe place.
We wouldn't want anyone to find out about the cortisone, would we?
What do you want?
We'll see.
[woman] Last call, express service to Los Angeles.
Ready for departure.
Express service bus to Los Angeles.
Remember when you said you couldn't ask me to wait for you?
Yeah.
I want you to.
Ask me.
Ask me! Come on, I'm late for work!
Ask me right now!
Emily, will you wait for me?
Yes.