=The Glory=
(Essential Formulas)
(Atractylodis rhizoma)
(Three thick drops with apricot bud juice)
(Atractylodis rhizoma, aristolochia manshuriensis)
=Episode 30=
Father.
Eat something.
Is Yunxi
alright now?
Rest assured.
It's not poisoned.
I know.
You made an oath with Fu Yunxi,
so you'd never go back on your word.
I know.
Zhuang Shiyang,
from now on,
we'll never meet again.
There's something
I've been wondering for a long time.
In your life,
besides yourself,
who have you truly loved?
There was only one person,
and that was your mother.
Really?
Your mother
being crippled
was just an accident.
I never intended to harm her.
That night at Shili Stop,
she died in my arms,
and I was heartbroken too.
I was crying as I let her go.
For all these years,
I often dream about the beautiful scene
when your mother and I
first met.
I loved her so much,
but
I had to personally kill her.
Hanyan,
you're an adult now.
You should understand
what it means to be helpless.
Since that year
when Eunuch Pei found your grandfather,
the gears of fate
began to turn,
pulling
all of us
into the whirlpool.
I was pushed step by step by fate
until I arrived at this point.
Saying the softest words
while doing the most ruthless things.
You've never changed.
Hanyan,
if right now,
you knew Fu Yunxi
was plotting to usurp the throne,
you knew
he would surely fail,
bringing ruin to your entire family,
and I handed you the knife,
would you kill him?
You can't answer me?
No.
I suppose
I would kill him too,
but I wouldn't pin the blame
on a child
or stir up disputes in the inner chambers
to cover up my own crimes.
I wouldn't ignore the kindness as a human
just for my own survival,
killing one innocent person after another
while putting on a false, virtuous face,
and trying to shift
all the blame onto fate.
I dare to admit
the things I've done,
but you don't.
That's the biggest difference between us.
Actually, we're the same.
We just want
a warm and harmonious home.
What do you think
makes a home?
A table full of delicious dishes is in front of you,
but you can't even have a single bite.
You have no trust in your family.
How could someone like you
have a home?
You don't know what love is,
so naturally, you don't know what home is.
We're like carrying a snowball down a hill.
When you can't bear the weight,
you let it roll bigger and bigger
until it crashes onto my back.
But I won't let go.
I will carry it
until I walk off the cliff.
I can sever all the harm
and pain
passed down from the previous generation,
and I'll never let the children suffer that harm again.
But you can't do that.
You only bring more harm and pain.
It's fine that you don't admit it.
I don't need to waste more words on you.
As we agreed before,
today,
I will let you go.
But I don't know
whether others
will do the same.
It's you.
I want to tell you
you could've not ended up empty-handed.
Where is everyone?
Where have all the servants gone?
Nanny Tao.
Hanyan.
Hanyan!
Save me!
Hanyan, I know I was wrong.
Hanyan,
save me!
Let me out!
I want to get out!
Hanyan...
My daughter.
My daughter!
Let me out!
My daughter,
I know I was wrong.
Let me out!
Hanyan...
My daughter!
(Seclusion, Zhuang Residence)
Mother.
Mother, it's me.
I'm Shiyang.
Mother, open the door.
Mother,
it's because of your cowardice and selfishness
that I'm left with no support in the family.
Otherwise, how would I have taken such risks,
leading to endless trouble today?
(Pure Heart)
All mothers in the world
are devoted to their children,
but you're cold and selfish.
Can you really bear to watch me die?
We are bound by blood.
Without me, who will tend you in your old age?
(Pure Heart)
Ruyin.
I know
that you
are the only one
who has cared for me the most
in my life.
She wants to kill her husband
in broad daylight.
Yushan,
when did you return?
Duke Qi has fallen.
I have no home to return to.
Where else could I go?
The day you were captured by Duke Qi,
I regretted it deeply.
At that moment, I swore
that as long as there was a glimmer of hope,
I would bring you back.
I would never allow you
to suffer.
It was supposed to be temporary.
Your mother went mad.
She was incited by Zhuang Hanyan
and was running around with a knife at home,
trying to harm me.
Only you could stop her.
Please talk her out of it.
You've always hated Hanyan.
You were right.
She is indeed despicable.
Father, please step aside.
Don't scare my horse.
Yushan, help...
She's killing her husband.
(Harmonious Family)
Zhuang Shiyang,
did you ever think you'd end up like this?
Stay calm.
With ancestors here,
don't commit evil.
I calmly watched Yuchi die tragically,
calmly pushed Yushan into the fire pit,
and calmly watched
my husband suddenly accuse me in court.
Don't worry.
I will still calmly leave you
with a whole corpse.
Can't you tell?
The reason why I accused you in the court
was to buy us some time.
For over ten years,
I've humbled myself
and served you as a maid.
We've had children together.
I raised them,
loved you,
and respected you.
I only wanted to give you a warm home.
But you...
What have you done to me?
You've treated me like a fool,
abandoned me,
disfigured me,
and used my kids.
Zhuang Shiyang,
how can I ever let you go?
(Harmonious Family)
Xiwen...
Xiwen, you're not dead?
(Seclusion, Memorial)
(Seclusion)
Ms. Tan, how is it?
Mr. Fu's condition has stabilized,
but he's been poisoned for so long
that the toxins in his body are hard to remove.
(Breeze Under Moonlight) As for the future,
it's truly beyond the reach of even immortals.
For me,
every extra day of my life
is a gift from heaven.
I dare not
be greedy.
Mr. Fu, please rest and recuperate.
I'll prepare more prescriptions for you.
Thank you.
Goodbye.
Thank you, Ms. Tan.
Though we aren't sure about the future,
at least for now,
we can be together.
In this way,
we will cherish
every day and every moment more.
Perhaps it's not a bad thing.
Shuhong,
take the food over there.
Yes.
Madam,
I was planning to go apologize to my cousin
after cooking this bowl of noodles.
I've stayed here for so many years.
It's time for me to retire in my hometown.
Aunt Kou, if you leave,
who will take care of Mother and Lingzhi's daily life?
Let Qiuyue handle it.
That girl is very clever.
Then who will take over
the accounts in the accounting room,
which need to be checked daily
and reconciled monthly?
You are the madam.
Of course, you'll take over.
I was confused before.
You were never confused.
Over the years,
Mother's been in poor health.
It's you who's been taking care of her
and managing the household.
You must've been exhausted
and wronged
and put a lot of effort into this,
so the household could be what it is now.
Outsiders may not know that,
but I'm sure
you know very well.
I...
Aunt Kou,
I know
that the servants often speak ill of you behind your back,
and you're aware of it,
but you still punish them when you have to.
I know
that to manage such a large household
with dozens of people under its roof,
someone has to stand up and be the villain.
Others don't know your grievances,
but Mother does,
Yunxi does, and so do I.
Aunt Kou,
you were never a villain.
No,
I am the villain.
I always make things hard for you.
I always pick on you.
I...
Aunt Kou,
you've lived your life alone
with no one to rely on, no home, and no children,
so you treat this family
as a shelter from the storm
and cherish and love
Yunxi and Lingzhi as if they were
your own flesh and blood.
I was an outsider who just married Yunxi,
so you feared I'd take them all away.
It's natural to think that way.
I understand that.
I've never truly blamed you.
Hanyan...
Aunt Kou, rest assured.
No matter when,
this place will always be your home.
We will always be your family.
When you grow old,
Yunxi and I will be loyal
and filial to you
just like you were our own mother.
I've failed my cousin.
I've failed Yunxi.
I've failed you even more, Hanyan.
Aunt Kou...
I...
- Aunt. - I deserve to die.
I'm ungrateful.
Don't cry anymore.
Hanyan, I'm sorry.
How about putting on the silver hairpin?
Shuhong, with the huadian
and the silver hairpin on,
am I a noble lady now?
Lingzhi wants to be a noble lady too?
I heard
Grandmother was a noble lady,
and Mother was also a noble lady.
So, I want to be a noble lady too.
What exactly makes a noble lady?
I'm too clumsy
to explain it.
If I have
a lot of money, treasure,
and beautiful jewelry,
and others bow to me when they see me,
would that make me a noble lady?
Maybe.
No matter when,
there surely are many women
who want to become so-called noble ladies.
But those grand life lessons
always come through taking many detours.
Only after hitting the wall
can one truly understand.
Yes.
Perhaps what we can do now
is protect her
when she's in despair.
(Naming me Hanyan)
Madam,
this is from the Zhuang Residence.
It's the obituary
of your father.
(Obituary)
Afraid of punishment,
he committed suicide at home?
What a surprise that the one
who's afraid of death the most
I've seen in my life committed suicide.
Shall we go and take a look?
No need.
There's something else important today.
You go prepare the carriage.
Yes.
I'll go with you.
(Tomb of Chen, Ruan Family)
(Tomb of Jilan, Ruan Family)
(Ruan)
(Mother,)
(Mr. Yuwen,)
(I once said)
(that I'd use Zhuang Shiyang's blood to honor both of you.)
(I've kept my word.)
(Now, I've avenged you.)
(Have you seen it?)
(Do you feel at ease?)
(This cruel man has committed innumerable crimes.)
(He'll surely go to the hell of endless torment.)
(And the two of you)
(Late Mother Ruan Xiwen) (will surely go to the Pure Land)
(Yuwen Chang'an) (and live as a loving couple)
(to make up for this life.)
Karma will put
the good and the evil in two worlds apart.
Rest assured.
From now on,
you will never again see the eyesore and detested ones.
Ms. Ruan,
Hanyan and I can uphold justice
thanks to your and Mr. Yuwen's years
of patience and planning.
Now,
the Danzhou case has been resolved.
Her foster parents abused her,
so Hanyan is innocent.
You don't need to worry anymore.
As dull-witted as I may be,
I will always follow her,
no matter
how many days are left.
We will rely on each other
and work hard to build a warm home for each other.
(Tomb of Late Mother Ruan Xiwen and Stepfather Yuwen Chang'an)
♪Open my eyes in this life♪
(I am Zhuang Hanyan,)
(growing up in the damp salty sea winds of Danzhou.)
(Since I could remember,)
(I've been suffering hardships,)
(such as beatings and insults,)
(hunger and cold,)
(and sarcasm and mockery.)
(I never had grand ambitions.)
(I just wanted to hold)
(onto a bit of warmth)
(on this endless cold winter night.)
(That would be enough for me.)
(But)
(what I sought was too simple,)
(and there was a time when no one believed it.)
♪I might as well let you fly far away♪
♪In the long storm♪
Have you found a home?
Yes.
Any place that is full of love
can be my home.
♪True feelings hidden in deception♪
♪Caught in a dilemma♪
♪How can I tell♪
♪Tenderness from lies♪
♪On the long road ahead♪
♪I would become your sword♪
♪Let me stay with you♪
♪And argue with fate♪
♪It's best for us to owe♪
♪And long for each other forever♪
♪The only flame in your long winter night♪
♪The only goose♪
♪In my winter sky♪
Ma'am, it's time for your tonic.
Forget it.
I won't eat it.
From now on,
don't bring me these things again.
Ma'am,
you've long wanted
this Longevity Pill of Baiyun Taoist Temple.
It's sealed with wax,
and it has a faint sandalwood fragrance.
It's really the Baiyun Longevity Pill
made by Taoist Huichu.
Hanyan
was right about this.
Heart ailments have their own cure.
I just used these things
to deceive myself.
Take them away.
- Yes. - Yes.
Ruren,
(Spirit Tablet of Late Sister, Li Ruren) you always said I was timid.
But this time,
I've been brave.
Did you see it?
Yushan,
let's go.
(Spirit Tablet of Late Husband, Zhuang Shiyang)
(Tomb of Harmony)
Mother,
a part of the character is missing.
Leave it be.
It matches the ancestral hall.
(Tomb of Harmony)
(In Month 3, the early spring,)
(the snow begins to melt,)
(but another heavy snowfall begins.)
(Luckily,)
(I'm nestled in the arms of the one I love.)
(I don't feel cold at all.)
♪Snow falls in silence♪
♪A cold heart beats in silence♪
♪Why push me away with your own hands?♪
♪Love has turned to hatred♪
♪But truly, you are my heart♪
♪You are my very being♪
♪Do not call me cold and cruel♪
♪Snow falls in silence♪
♪I love you in silence♪
♪If hatred never fades♪
♪I'll guard you for eternity's sake♪
♪Threads of fate, who will sever them?♪
♪Ties and bonds, all too fleeting♪
♪I want you to be carefree forever♪
♪I will be carefree♪
♪I want all your wishes to be fulfilled♪
♪All my wishes will be fulfilled♪
♪Who will cut the kite's string?♪
♪Who will mend the regrets left behind?♪
♪Sleepless nights linger on♪
♪I seem to see you in my dreams♪
♪Your smile♪
Yunxi.
Actually,
since we met,
I've lied to you about another thing.
No need to say it anymore.
Why?
No matter how the past was,
there's no need to revisit it.
No need
to entangle with the past.
Because now,
we have a beautiful future.
♪Blurring my weary eyes♪
♪You are my closest kin♪
♪Hurt me with the greatest ease♪
♪Snow falls in silence♪
♪A cold heart beats in silence♪
♪Why push me away with your own hands?♪
♪Love has turned to hatred♪
How embarrassing.
♪You are my very being♪
Let's play with fireworks.
♪Snow falls in silence♪
♪I love you in silence♪
♪If hatred never fades♪
♪I'll guard you for eternity's sake♪
♪Threads of fate, who will sever them?♪
♪Ties and bonds, all too fleeting♪
♪I want you to be carefree forever♪
♪I will be carefree♪
♪I want all your wishes to be fulfilled♪
♪All my wishes will be fulfilled♪
♪Who will cut the kite's string?♪
♪Who will mend the regrets left behind?♪
♪Sleepless nights linger on♪
♪I seem to see you in my dreams♪
♪Your smile. Unwilling to sever the threads of fate♪
(Blessings)
♪I want you to be carefree forever♪
♪I will be carefree♪
♪I want all your wishes to be fulfilled♪
♪All my wishes will be fulfilled♪
♪Unwilling to cut the kite's string♪
♪The regrets left behind will be mended now♪
♪Sleepless nights linger on♪
♪I seem to see you in my dreams♪
♪Falling asleep together♪
♪At this moment, you are by my side♪
♪Watching the moon♪
(The End)
♪She hides away her past♪
♪Covered in scars♪
♪She forgets who she is♪
♪Disguised as one returning home♪
♪When night falls, in the yard♪
♪Mist rises in swirls♪
♪She steps onto the battlefield♪
♪No distraction is allowed♪
♪A touch of love, a trace of hate♪
♪No need to question♪
♪The truth and falsehood♪
♪Needs to be discerned♪
♪Seeking warmth in peril♪
♪Only to be mocked as naive♪
♪War drums sound, beacons flare♪
♪Who can break free♪
♪She is willing to become a blade♪
♪Moving forward without retreat♪
♪Charging into this lonely fortress♪
♪Even in a fateful clash♪
♪With eyes stained with blood♪
♪She holds no grudge♪
♪She does not trust fate♪
♪She does not pray to gods♪
♪She grips the blade♪
♪As geese fly south in winter♪
♪She alone journeys north♪
♪Seeking truth in falsehood♪
♪She'd become the blade♪
♪With love as her shield♪
♪Plunging into this mortal world♪
♪Shattering mirages♪
♪And illusions♪
♪To pay respect to the fallen souls♪
♪She does not trust fate♪
♪She does not pray to gods♪
♪She grips the blade♪
♪As geese fly south in winter♪
♪She alone journeys north♪
♪Seeking only a trace♪
♪Of warmth♪